Wish the day never happened

A sudden jet of love hormones  

As I see you sitting at the corner table in CCD

But when I see your face

It felt like a lightning struck me

Nevertheless I composed instantly

Didn’t let the mystical caffeine air, entice me.

This wasn’t a date, I came here to talk

Stop looking at how sexy he is

Stop being victim to the chivalrous charm.

We only shook hands…followed by one clumsy hug,

Obviously catching gazes like we do.

We sat apart, a fair distance, maintained.

This wasn’t a date, I came here to talk

Stop looking at how sexy he is

Stop being victim to the chivalrous charm.

Just too happy yet reluctant to show my awe

I started ruffling the pages of your notepad.

Hopelessly gauche, my fingers trembled.

I wasn’t alright till you held my hand.

Maybe you read all through,

What I was trying to hide.

You cracking jokes, being your usual self

Making small talks to make me laugh.

But something had me chained,

It was a make-or-break day.

The chemistry was same, the warmth unconditional.

But I was sceptical, what if something was unfortunate.

We walk away from there soon…

Even paneer didn’t feel good today.

I was seriously disarmed.

Paced the same Rajiv Chowk

The station we’ve walked so many times.

Headed to our favourite spot

Tao in CP has its own charm.

Almost fought over drinking or not.

Settled to having a sober meal.

Thus began the talking

I thoughtlessly poured my heart out

The needed austerity was right across.

The tables had turned…I was the grave one today.

Talking didn’t seem just enough

Headed to CCD again…everything made perfect sense

We’ve had our best times there.

I was in mood for what I don’t like

A brownie and a chocolate pastry

A coffee we had never ordered.

Mere chocolate wasn’t killing me today.

Thus the beginning of things that never happened.

When it started to sink in…

It made me numb, I tried to be indifferent.

I chose not to rub it in now.

Tried my best to distract myself all along.

Soon it was time to go.

Trust me I wanted to run away.

Run away from this reality.

Not a thing, we won’t be one anymore.