Unanswered Prayer

Disillusioned, distorted, desperate yet distinguished

Relying on hopes and confident on dreams

Distressed, disheartened, deliberate yet damaged.

I close my eyes to nothingness

Murmur a silent yearning whisper for an answer

To learn an unheard cry, screaming at my face

You’re just another mortal molded piece

Oops…I guess I shouldn’t have said that after all!

No, I never stop believing in thou presence.

I open my eyes to see a rhetorical truth

Harsh, but upfront; unyielding yet unchanging.

An air of patience and calm surrender

Dissipating now submissive in this air of supposed serenity

In the wake of an itinerant, unanswered prayer

I have a time of sheer silence and absence of thought.

Should I come back later for an answer?

Perhaps you’re too busy right now…

None of these defeats treat me well, for you know me suitably

My existence is beginning to fade into pieces, and before you’ll know…

They’ll call it destiny and dismiss my fate and me as an unusual crime.

Don’t make me think otherwise for I have believed in you!

Those places crowded in that mad rush

Half scared, weak and fragile from weariness

Little too lonely and awkwardly placed in that coffee shop

Seconds passed like hours, and minutes like days without you

In that meek glance every second second outside the door.

I was beginning to give up on me and you

I closed my eyes and adjusted in my chair

Dissipated in familiar warmth yet caught unaware

You kissed and hugged me your magical hug

In all true emotion I held up and fought my silly tear.

You looked so content yet so concerned in that chivalric façade

Trying to make everything perfect in an instant sway

Troubled and worried when the water came unanswered for

The very famous, yet nervous old lovers

True but together now, I was leaving that evening.

When I was looking for those silences between us

Your eyes won’t look away from me

The apprehension in you was making me weak

Another few minutes over a better tea,

In several thoughtful last moments with you.

I want to give up on being the plucky face,

For time has gotten the better of me

I missed you when my train left

I miss you when you’re gone

I missed you from my hospital bed

I miss you when I’m weak

I thought of you in the movie scene

I think of you each night I sleep.

I love u still and I love you more,

I am only caught up in too much in too less time

Can’t begin to think of losing you another instance

As I may look to have gone stronger in time

Only you can cause that real laugh and tear I can’t hide

And I’ll still run back to you for that last hug.

You're closing the spaces between us

We are too far to be heard

Still so, all I hear is you in the mad rush

It was from yesterday that you sang me a song

My day was low with everything else I dint want to talk about

Its only you whom I could come to

Without talking, you talk me out of it

At the salad bar, or the coffee shop, we've had the date

And you've kissed me through the phone

I closed my eyes, and felt your hug dissipate the troubles around me

the silly jokes, our secret talk, the code words and pussycat doll!

You're closing the spaces between us....

The distracted couples perplexed still look at me and you

As the single guy n girl so happy and content

Makes them wonder what is missing between them

When we're on the phone

Miles apart and yet so close

They see the ways u make me laugh and make me dance in that silly twirl of urs!

Ohh...so bad... I miss the touch,

Holding your hands and walking around

In the January rain and the hurried weekday lunch

Still so, till I come back.....

You're closing the spaces between us...!!

The Dark Night

As it rains tonight

I stare into the darkness, for I believe in you and me

No darkness shall take me away from thee

No reason to shed a tear hence

I drew that line that day we met

For sadness is no more a friend

Each drop that fell on me

I stood there in my balcony

I let it wet me and I quivered as it teased me

I rushed back and sat by my windowsill

Slowly, I saw the empty spaces fill

For sadness was no more a friend

A tragic hero, numb yet despaired

Rose back from the dead                                                    

Decided to write a sonnet

To tell you my love

How I’ve missed the way I poured my heart out to you

I’ve missed the rain and the bond we shared

It promises to not stop tonight

Make all the music it does tonight

The drops that fall on my windowsill

The ones that touch my face tonight

In this dark yet promising night

You make me see all the seen; I had never seen.

Sweet Escape

Craving to be in bed

Hugging my pillow to sleep

Drifting into my favourite world of dreams

Its 3 in the morning, and it all seems sumptuous

Cos when these thoughts entice me

The ugly deadlines glare at me

The laptop pities my puffy eyes

As each eyelid struggles to keep me stirring

Every 10 minutes I count the pages left till I sleep

When the D-day arrives closer by

 The hands of the clock are on a F1 strive

Its 4 am and with a huge sigh

The last word ends serenely with a stop.

I am just about awake and fatigued now

I could sleep in my chair with my head on the desk

The journey to the bed seemed a herculean ride.

But I summon some power and wrap my work

I hit the lights out and head straight to bed

This process steals a bit of my sleep

Yet the mattress gives a celestial feel

I pull the sheets on me and blink an eye

 I witnessed an unusual, splendid sight

How I forgot it was a full moon night

Gone are those days when I had those quality times

My private time for my private emotions

Thoughts of you, me and the full moon starry night

A sense of perpetual peace and warmth embraced me

In that cold and windy night

I got the same high I used to get

The mystic connection we once held

I sealed that gaze forever in my eyes

Tip toed into my sweet escape, the world of fantasy, my only respite.

The God that I failed

It’s a busy, bright sunny day

I’m walking my way to work, on this lane again

I can see there’s so much noise around

But I can’t hear what they say

And I walk solitary in this crowd because I have no purpose to say

All I have is my shadow that abides me wherever I go

Now that you’re gone, I know

I’ll never have someone like you

You’re the god that I failed

Last night when I cried myself to sleep

The thoughts of you won’t leave my side

And the pain would kill me inside a million times

And no one else will ever take my side

You’re the god that I failed

I forgot those days when you made me laugh till my stomach hurt

And you nurtured the person within me

As we grew together you became my strength

But I conveniently forgot that I was the only weakness you ever had

I did the sin I should never have,

I made you cry and I brought you tears

And now there’s no looking back from here

All I have is my shadow that abides me wherever I go

Now that you’re gone, I know

I’ll never have someone like you

No one will and never can ever take the place of you in my heart

But, you’re the god that I failed.

I wish I believed

I wish I believed what you said

And gave us what we deserved

Vanity and imprudence, the lethal combo took over me

I forgot I didn’t have the license to interrogate yet

Guilt and remorse should have been my reparation

Now I’ve ended up feeling wretched and remorseful

Now that I’m left with nothing

I’ve lost that everything I had

I’m sorry that I hurt u and it kills me to see you sad

How could I forgot the days I brought you tears

And still you forgave all my lies

And every time I cried, you shouted and cursed

But you came back to my side

All those days we fought to be together

And now we fought to be apart

When all the forces tried to tear us

U fought like a warrior but I made u lose the fight

I’m sorry that I failed you

But it still so hurts and kills me inside

U’re the reason that I lived

When I made that secret vow

How could I forget the day you forgave?

The biggest sins I ever did

U took me as I came

Wrapped in those arms, gave me that heavenly warmth.

Now you say you won’t see me again

I wish I could turn the hands of time

Why didn’t I ask myself what I’m putting at stake?

Playing the gamble, not taking the blame

How could I believe those who never once played a fair game?

The parting words you said to me

And now all that you feel for me

Sheer hate, distrust, malice and disgust

Is all in these two years I earned

How could I do this to the one I loved

The one who only loved me the best

I took from you all that you had

Now I’m the one you’ll hate forever

The one who lead you to the immoral path.

There ain't no life without you

I wana cross the desert
Scorch myself in the sun
I wana walk alone in the snow
Snivel alone in the dead of the night
Go some place i don't know
Cos, there ain’t no life without you

When you say callous words,
I know it hurts you just as much
But, so many things I don’t understand
A complete mismatch we are
It is not pulling us together anymore
But, there ain’t no life without you

Hurting you I bruise my own soul
And sob as I speak on the phone
However a time comes
Mistakes can’t be forgiven anymore
But, there ain’t no life without you

You want your freedom and I want mine
Now, is this love about chaining us up?
When I do the blunders, and I vex you bad
When my heart tells me
No one has and no one ever will love me like that
Trust me, I want to cry my eyes out
Cos, there ain’t no life without you

I am losing hope, that ray of light
I don’t intend to fight, the fight
Don’t wana fight and argue no more
An epic moment, I suffer the loss of words
My lips will only tremble as I tell you this
But, there ain’t no life without you

I knew it was love

We have been friends for too long

Told you once and I told you twice,

Baby, you just don’t listen

I know you best

I’ve passed every test, to tell the rest

I’ll love you the best

The January rain, you walked with me

Back from work, perfect in that pink dress

The rains, the clouds, no one seemed better than you

When, the sudden cold wind blew across your face

The way you hugged onto me tight,

The way you shut your eyes,

Your smell, the warmth, the amazing feeling

Suddenly conscious of the way we touched

You drifted apart

You opened your eyes and looked at me

The prettiest eyes had ever seen

I wish it lasted forever, you stayed with me forever

The moment I knew for once and forever

You’re my pretty princess in pink

That was the moment I knew it was love.