Friday, June 11, 2010

Because what I love isn't you

I looked away
Then I looked back at you
U tried to say
Things that I didn’t wana know

You try too hard to find a way
To come near me
My eyes tell you to go away
U can’t handle what I have to say

U promise me a better time
U promise me a life
I think I am incapable of
Can’t hold my bruised heart anymore

There is too much pain
I have no love to give you

Each time I take a step
Its like I’ll fall into pieces
I dread we can’t make it through.

I don’t want to talk about it
All I wana sit and stare at the full moon
Cry in front of it endlessly

Cos what I love isn’t you.

Justice

I am done with doing justice
Its time I have mine

I m so fake around you
Just to entertain you, I lose my face
You knew me then
You don’t wana know me anymore

Hiding my tears behind your sorrows
I’m done with putting a facade
Pushing you and leaving myself behind

An year passed by and I’ve done all to please
But nothing is ever good enough

To err is human but my mistakes are unforgiven
Your dreams, your drama I carried it all

But will you ever care to know mine
I maybe losing all I have
But give me some reason to stay behind

Ignorant to my needs, you have ample excuses
I am a crutch making you crippled
You are better off anyway

You may not but I have much to lose
In this game I’ll never win

For what I want is what you can never give

It has been a year or so
You’ve moved on and left me cold
I wish I could tell you so
I still got a thing for you

Baby I understand its all so hard on you
But I get so hurt sometimes stuck in the middle of you
I don’t know what to do

No one will ever love you like me
Maybe I messed it up with you
But its time to close that open door.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

A voice surges through me
I will say what I have to before its too late
What has been said and done
Is just about to change

All the tears and hurt caused
Will go down the drain
What has been said and done
Is just about to change

You will see a different me
Don’t fail to recognise, look within me.
What has been said and done
Is just about to change

Expectations cause complications
Apologies have lost meaning
Being good is never good enough
Good always has a superlative degree

I’ll change the definition for you
Hereafter I live it my way, my own terms
What has been said and done
Is just about to change.

Underestimation is an understatement
You did much worse to me
What has been said and done
Is just about to change.

Stridden out me when I was wounded
I won’t be naïve no more.
Because it never did no good to me.
What has been said and done
Is just about to change.

I'll make it last forever

Its not like it’s the last day
I wana make this day
I’ll make it last forever baby.

When day breaks and I see the sun
All the wrong goes away
I’ll make you smile
I’ll make you shine forever baby.

I see your face and you make me smile
You brighten up my day
I’ll hug you tight
I’ll make it right

Its not like it’s the last day
I wana make this day
I’ll make it last forever baby.

Believe in me, believe in you
We’re gona pull it through
I kiss your lips
Taste like the choco chips

Its not like it’s the last day

All the pain,the tears we cried together
Still you never said goodbye
I know you’ll go far for me
And I will never let you down.

I’ll be what you’ll always want.

Its not like it’s the last day
I wana make this day
I’ll make it last forever baby.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

The day that was!

The wait, made me desperate.
The heat got better of me.
The quest blended with the thirst to see.
The man of my dreams is worth the wait.

Morning sickness and the stomach ache
An hour ride battling the programming logistics.
A rickety promise and circumstantial surrender
The wait, made me desperate.

So I finally reach my destination
All geared up and set to see.
Coming to realise the wait’s extended.
The tension and restlessness engulfs me.

I make way to the rest room
Pass half my time there;
Putting on dresses, trying to look the best me.
The man of my dreams is worth the wait.

Looking at the others I miss you from me.
From knowing you are just as anxious
It roots me momentarily
But the heaving emotions don’t stop.

Time somehow is thrusted by
And its finally is time to see you.
The man of my dreams is worth the wait.

I see you from a distance
All sweaty from the heat
Yet the smile comes at once
The pain is gone, no exasperation anymore.

The ultimate emotion crawls into me
The feeling sinks right into my knees.
I almost run to hug and get hold of you at once.
You are a little surprised to see the overwhelmed response.

In the midst of heavy traffic,
There is a silence that captures me
I am still too relieved to speak.
The touch intensifies the pleasure I want to hold on.

I gladly took a sweet escape,
I slid behind that chair
What happened is neither fault nor chance
My bosom stroked what feels the best


The fissionable substances thus meet
The chemistry begins its magic
The resistance begins to fail
The capacitance utilises what waited so long.


The touch causes the enchanting spell
A stir among us and we catch gazes aloud.
We do what we do best
Make them jealous and feel satisfied.

It is impossible to demand and punish myself
As I know you are the one I can’t resist
My mind battles my body
The heart speaks another language altogether.

The mind won the combat
The resistance told me to differ
Asking me to close eyes to what the body speaks
Helplessly drawn to your gentle touches

My actions sail as my heart takes over.

Its bliss the way you kiss my forehead
The tender touches and excuses to tickle me.
The seduction in your voice
The word of admiration spoken into my ears

The ripple that travels from the ears
Causes butterflies right inside my stomach
Its an year from when these happened first
The electricity in you still paralyses my thoughts.

We have tonnes to talk and laugh about
Everything interests me with you around
All the troubles set freely away
Your arms are the best heaven abode.

Its difficult to want to detach this mystic union
But its time to part ways
A final hug followed by subsequent ones
A goodbye and a flying kiss you didn’t see.

With a heavy heart and much slower steps I drag my feet
And see the last of you.
Going so I can come back to see.
Truly so, the man of my dreams is worth the wait.

LIVED IT..ALL!

I see it happening to me now…

I’ve been told and taught so.
I am just an animal tamed in your hands
A piece of sand moulded to your needs.

When u told me it is forever….Was it just a lie?
What’s the point in fighting a lost war…?
I’ve already bled and cried too much for you.

Will he ever me love me like u do..?
Will he really fight for me?
Die for me…lie for me…like u do?
How can he compete?
You don’t want to leave and I don’t go…

I wish I could take it back to where it started.
You got a choice to make it stop.
It has been taken way too far now.

I have lost the strength to fight you anymore.