Unanswered Prayer

Disillusioned, distorted, desperate yet distinguished

Relying on hopes and confident on dreams

Distressed, disheartened, deliberate yet damaged.

I close my eyes to nothingness

Murmur a silent yearning whisper for an answer

To learn an unheard cry, screaming at my face

You’re just another mortal molded piece

Oops…I guess I shouldn’t have said that after all!

No, I never stop believing in thou presence.

I open my eyes to see a rhetorical truth

Harsh, but upfront; unyielding yet unchanging.

An air of patience and calm surrender

Dissipating now submissive in this air of supposed serenity

In the wake of an itinerant, unanswered prayer

I have a time of sheer silence and absence of thought.

Should I come back later for an answer?

Perhaps you’re too busy right now…

None of these defeats treat me well, for you know me suitably

My existence is beginning to fade into pieces, and before you’ll know…

They’ll call it destiny and dismiss my fate and me as an unusual crime.

Don’t make me think otherwise for I have believed in you!

Those places crowded in that mad rush

Half scared, weak and fragile from weariness

Little too lonely and awkwardly placed in that coffee shop

Seconds passed like hours, and minutes like days without you

In that meek glance every second second outside the door.

I was beginning to give up on me and you

I closed my eyes and adjusted in my chair

Dissipated in familiar warmth yet caught unaware

You kissed and hugged me your magical hug

In all true emotion I held up and fought my silly tear.

You looked so content yet so concerned in that chivalric façade

Trying to make everything perfect in an instant sway

Troubled and worried when the water came unanswered for

The very famous, yet nervous old lovers

True but together now, I was leaving that evening.

When I was looking for those silences between us

Your eyes won’t look away from me

The apprehension in you was making me weak

Another few minutes over a better tea,

In several thoughtful last moments with you.

I want to give up on being the plucky face,

For time has gotten the better of me

I missed you when my train left

I miss you when you’re gone

I missed you from my hospital bed

I miss you when I’m weak

I thought of you in the movie scene

I think of you each night I sleep.

I love u still and I love you more,

I am only caught up in too much in too less time

Can’t begin to think of losing you another instance

As I may look to have gone stronger in time

Only you can cause that real laugh and tear I can’t hide

And I’ll still run back to you for that last hug.