You're not here

Every morning I look for you

Like this was all just an ugly dream that will be over soon

I will have u here in my arms again

I feel sunshine inside of me thinking of you

I hear a distant music that connects our souls forever

We were never meant to be bound by what they had to say

I wish I could change this life we are not living

I regret the days I didn’t love you

For now I live with this sinking feeling every day

I never loved you enough for you deserved the best

The beautiful lullaby that brought tears to our eyes

That lovely moonlight on the terrace when I felt you holding my hand

The promise of never letting go

I didn’t live up to what we worked for

I wish I could go back in time and start all over again

With a true promise to change everything

I close my eyes and dream about us

A perfect togetherness is all I want

A beautiful sunny day

Me and you in the park laughing our sorrows away

Sitting on the lovely grass your head in my lap

I wish that I could start everyday holding your hand

The strength you gave me the hopes we had for us

I go to bed each with the hopes of breaking this nightmare next day

But it is been so long and this won’t change

And now am fading out without you

I guess become a broken record when I say 

I miss you everyday but I can’t say enough

I think I am finally losing my strength

I will love each day, I promise I’ll love the rain and the snow

I’ll love everything you say as long as u are beside me.

This time last year

Come autumn; this time last year

I made a beautiful start with you

Tonight isn’t the same however

I lie in my bed alone

Your feet not touching mine

Your arms not wrapped around me in that warmth

 

You are missed in the street we walked

You are missed in all the places we talked

In the resonating silence that surrounds me

I wished one day I feel your hand on my shoulder

To find you there smiling at me

Back again to never leave

When I may regret what I did wrong

This taught me what I never thought

Would be the biggest truth in life

There is no place I’d rather be without you

I hold my tears and bring myself to tranquility

In the hopes of being with you again

It may seem so impossible now

But I will continue to wait

As there will be brighter times ahead

My heart won’t feel so hollow

This bed won’t feel so big

My life won’t be empty any longer

For you my love, will be in my arms again.

In the wake of Surreality

In the disclosure of the moment
hid captive in the spontaneity
and within those somber eyes
your long lashes they looked beautiful

for a girl who didn't believe her features
shied away in that moment of silence
encapsulated in curiosity
and in the magnificence of short-livedness

the urgency to dissimulate
yet suppress the urge to know little more
before I leave you here
not knowing if the idea was insane

the longing to hold you back there
and make time go still on both of us
your lips they quivered in a meaningful attempt
to break the silence that lingered between us

just in time when I looked at you from that distance
so naive, so untouched, forever pure
those eyes that looked back at me cast a magic spell
when I blinked to look around for you

I couldn't see a sign of you
like I just woke up from a reverie
but everything about it was so real
that velvet dress you wore
the heat of those unspoken emotions so modest

and those eyes, they held me captive forever in a memory of you.

I'll be right beside you

Your face so changed from yesterday

The big grin’s gone, your gaze is lost

Bad news hit me like that thunderbolt

Denying the probable, my impossible

We’ve gone too far along

To step back and let dreams dissimilate

Trying hard and bringing down the odds

This battle can’t be lost

I see you in sight

With a patient face, and infectious smile

Composed in a future bright

Please take your time

You’ll figure it out

And I’ll be right beside you

Go if you have to

Nothing you’ve done to make me love you less

Your love won’t fade away

Come back when you can

And I’ll be right beside you

If this big dream is crashing down

Let go, but hold my hand

We’ll dream another time

The best is yet to come

And I’ll be right beside you.

Unanswered Prayer

Disillusioned, distorted, desperate yet distinguished

Relying on hopes and confident on dreams

Distressed, disheartened, deliberate yet damaged.

I close my eyes to nothingness

Murmur a silent yearning whisper for an answer

To learn an unheard cry, screaming at my face

You’re just another mortal molded piece

Oops…I guess I shouldn’t have said that after all!

No, I never stop believing in thou presence.

I open my eyes to see a rhetorical truth

Harsh, but upfront; unyielding yet unchanging.

An air of patience and calm surrender

Dissipating now submissive in this air of supposed serenity

In the wake of an itinerant, unanswered prayer

I have a time of sheer silence and absence of thought.

Should I come back later for an answer?

Perhaps you’re too busy right now…

None of these defeats treat me well, for you know me suitably

My existence is beginning to fade into pieces, and before you’ll know…

They’ll call it destiny and dismiss my fate and me as an unusual crime.

Don’t make me think otherwise for I have believed in you!

Those places crowded in that mad rush

Half scared, weak and fragile from weariness

Little too lonely and awkwardly placed in that coffee shop

Seconds passed like hours, and minutes like days without you

In that meek glance every second second outside the door.

I was beginning to give up on me and you

I closed my eyes and adjusted in my chair

Dissipated in familiar warmth yet caught unaware

You kissed and hugged me your magical hug

In all true emotion I held up and fought my silly tear.

You looked so content yet so concerned in that chivalric façade

Trying to make everything perfect in an instant sway

Troubled and worried when the water came unanswered for

The very famous, yet nervous old lovers

True but together now, I was leaving that evening.

When I was looking for those silences between us

Your eyes won’t look away from me

The apprehension in you was making me weak

Another few minutes over a better tea,

In several thoughtful last moments with you.

I want to give up on being the plucky face,

For time has gotten the better of me

I missed you when my train left

I miss you when you’re gone

I missed you from my hospital bed

I miss you when I’m weak

I thought of you in the movie scene

I think of you each night I sleep.

I love u still and I love you more,

I am only caught up in too much in too less time

Can’t begin to think of losing you another instance

As I may look to have gone stronger in time

Only you can cause that real laugh and tear I can’t hide

And I’ll still run back to you for that last hug.

You're closing the spaces between us

We are too far to be heard

Still so, all I hear is you in the mad rush

It was from yesterday that you sang me a song

My day was low with everything else I dint want to talk about

Its only you whom I could come to

Without talking, you talk me out of it

At the salad bar, or the coffee shop, we've had the date

And you've kissed me through the phone

I closed my eyes, and felt your hug dissipate the troubles around me

the silly jokes, our secret talk, the code words and pussycat doll!

You're closing the spaces between us....

The distracted couples perplexed still look at me and you

As the single guy n girl so happy and content

Makes them wonder what is missing between them

When we're on the phone

Miles apart and yet so close

They see the ways u make me laugh and make me dance in that silly twirl of urs!

Ohh...so bad... I miss the touch,

Holding your hands and walking around

In the January rain and the hurried weekday lunch

Still so, till I come back.....

You're closing the spaces between us...!!