If I could say sorry

If I could say sorry

For the million ways I make you mad

When we both end up being sad

Emotional turmoil and sleepless nights.

If it was easier to turn a blind eye,

I would tell myself this is how it’s supposed to be.

If I could be stronger than this,

Be the girl you always wished for.

I never thought I’d lose my mind

I’ve got this feeling that you are slipping away.

Soon, you’ll be gone forever.

See how things inched from how they were before.

If I could go back in time

The days we secretly wished to fight

Ways to make up were divine.

If it was less complicated

If I could say sorry

For the million ways I make you mad.

You call me up…trying to figure out why I am so messed

I speak endlessly, nothing but crap.

Feeling terribly nervous for what I did.

There is nothing I want to prove to you

Just be my friend, be with me forever like this.

I’ll make it alright…just don’t be mad.