Shivering Sentiments

Sitting on the shore,

I am lying back on the sand…

As I try to find answers

To a million questions in my head.

The night is starry

The moon gives me company.

Will I ever accomplish it?

Will I ever live my reverie?

But only my shivering sentiments come to rescue me.

I want to scream so I can fight my fears

The waves hitting the shore… bury all sounds in my throat.

I close my eyes, a darkness beyond the starry night

A tear trickles down my eye.

I can’t see the direction of my destination anymore

In the obscurity of this dream

I see a window….a ray of hope

I feared to look outside, too scared to discover something worse.

As I drew closer to this window

I hear different voices coming from within
Voices of my longings.

With that came a vision of what I had achieved.

What I’ve always been.

I stood there at that window shivering with fear.

Suddenly the darkness disappeared and I open my eyes.

I see the sun coming up at the horizon,

Eyes still wet from what I had seen,

Suddenly I felt goose bumps.

The orange shimmer from the rising sun,

The waves were now hushed…

Talking quietly among themselves,

Like they knew what I had seen

The sand on the beach looked beautiful.

Seeing the scenic beauty,

I closed my eyes in relief.

Nothing is unattainable; I wish I had seen this before.

The window of learning, finding my real self.

After the darkest night comes a dawn

My dawn’s breaking here now.

Life will turn a new leaf.

I walk back home,

Head held up high…

I look at the sun in the eye

I walk now, With a smile on my face.

All my fears, the tears are gone...

And all my shivering sentiments are trounced upon.